How long must I wait, God? As long as you will have me to wait. You timing is perfect, and I am absolutely certain that Your plan will not fail. Give me strength anew each morning, Lord, and help me wait. You are SO good!
Everything happens for a reason.
You make me smile… :)
Hello Tumblr. It’s been a long time. I’m going to be starting a new, legit blog soon, to write about all the things God has taught and is teaching me. I’m so excited!
I hope all you guys are doing well and having an awesome summer so far! :)
things I couldn’t care less about
what kind of truck you drive.
…or that you even have a truck.
Or that it has humongous tires.
Aaron Jermundson is the bomb.com. Yeah, he may be the quirky guy that randomly sticks his head into classrooms and CE events, but he was able to restore my faith in people today. He is probably the only person I’ve interacted with this week that did his job, did his job well, and did so with a smile. How refreshing!
I LOVE Aaron Jermundson! He is a fantastic person. :)
God is good. I had a small breakthrough on Tuesday during a long run on Viking Trail. :) I definitely wasn’t expecting it.
I’m going through hell. And I thought last semester and last year were hard. Boy, was I wrong, because things just keep getting difficult. I know God has grown me and want to believe He is now. But I don’t want to trust Him. I feel like I’ve taken 5 million steps back. I don’t want to write about everything, but here is a song that describes what I’m feeling, amid a myriad of other feelings. I am so weak and undisciplined and apathetic and wounded right now that I don’t want to turn to God. I know that I should. I want somewhat to be at that point of complete surrender again, and leave everything there, and believe the Gospel, but I can’t make myself get there, and I still want to hold on to control.
These Hard Times by NeedToBreathe
Give me something brighter
Give me something I can see
Give me something vicious
Give me something I can be
Give me all the love and peace
To end these wars
Give me something sacred
Something worth fighting for
It’s clear enough to me
The ugliness I see
Is evidence of who I need
Give me an answer
Give me a way out
Give me the faith
To believe in these hard times
Give me motivation
Give me all my heart’s desires
Show me something gorgeous
Show me till my eyes get tired
Give me all the drums and
Show me how to play them loud
Show me how to move
When I can’t feel that you’re around
It’s clear enough to me
The ugliness I see
Is evidence of who I need
Give me an answer
Give me a way out
Give me the faith
To believe in these hard times
We hide like theives in shadows
Scared of the sun
We know the light will find us
Us and all we’ve done
Give me an answer
Give me a way out
Give me the faith
To believe in these hard times
Rejuvenation
So, I’ve decided that guy friends are one of the best things in the world. Seriously. It must be something about the lack of estrogen, maybe. I’ve had two thorough catch-up times this week with two amazing guys that mean a lot to me - one a breakfast that lasted a little over two hours, and one a breakfast, 1-mile interval run, and trip to Brunswick and back that lasted 6 1/2 hours - and they both went by so fast because the time was so enjoyable. It is so refreshing to be able to reconnect with Hampton and have a restored friendship with my best guy friend, Troy. :D
The last year
Wow…looking back on the last year…a LOT has happened.
I rang in 2009 New Year in a hospital hooked up to an IV in London (things looked up from there)
I became an aunt
I made finals in Open Class at World Championships for winterguard
I directed another bronze medal award winning year of Berry College Independent Winterguard.
I went to Costa Rica and got love professed to me by a local Costa Rican boy, who still talks to me on facebook and asks when I am coming back to see him. “Ashton, you are different kind of girl, no? You are special”. haha! Guess it depends on how you interpret “different”.
I had some interesting relationships come and go
I began my last year in college
I auditioned for and made a World Class winterguard
Truly so much has happened. A lot I am not proud of and a lot that I am. But good or bad, 2009 definitely taught me some things….about myself, about others, and about the Lord. If I had a new years resolution (hate those by the way), it would be to grow closer the the Father. I have realized I am not as strong as I thought I was. I cant always do what is right. No matter how much I know I should…I succumb. I need Him to give me the strength to make the right decisions. Because as life as shown me, I am not capable of doing it alone.
That’s what He has shown me too. My pride just builds up so much at times and then He shows me that I cannot rely on myself…I need His strength every day, and I need wisdom to discern His will instead of going with what I feel like is His will.
